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I think I'm just officially addicted to fb cause I got so desperate that I e-mailed them for helped. ><I guess I have to face it. My Tokugawa lecture notes are screaming for me to read them now.
Bye.
OICU now. (:
- Mood:
bouncy
Yawn.
Projects, tutorials, assignments, mid-terms and readings.
Interesting?
C me
- Mood:
busy
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Now left to secure tutorial timeslots and 1 GEM. Let's aim for a 3-day school week~!
- Mood:
relaxed
Despite that, I think I made the perfect choice for myself. Now I only have to decide what to major in... um... everything seems so interesting and I wanna spend time in everything. And everything just seems so related to each other! Ergh.
I'm having a panic attack.
I think typing out my thoughts ease it a little.
So I'm here to blog.
NEVERTHELESS, I'm EXCITED!
Say hello to student life again (:
Be well...
- Mood:
good
It has been a while since the 8 of us finally gathered in full attendance and I realised some stuff..
1) I finally had company when I went to the gents.
2) I don't crave for clubbing anymore,
It felt like the old days with everyone and despite us being 21 this year and Jeff being a dad, we're still us and young at heart.
The usual cam-whoring and all the laughter and jokes. It's been a while since we had all that craze together. I miss the old days and yesterday was probably the closet it could get, for now.
Azimah will be flying off to Perth on Monday and it will be a while before 8 of us gathered again. The group has came a long way since it was formed in 2004 (or was it 2005)? With our permanent member Casey (which makes it 8 of us + Casey) and our friendship of 8 years. There will be more to come (:
Clubbing at Rebel was quite fun with the Aussies. There was "dance-battles" and "friendships-for-a-night" with random people on the dance floors. Fun as it was, it soon tire me and although I did enjoy, it's not something I will do every weekend anymore (I guess). There are other goals in life, and I think fullfilling them and forging special bonds with people are more important than a night of insane, drunk madness.
Life is just starting..
C & C
- Mood: calm
Samuel, aids.
May, cancer.
It is painful to live knowing that you're going to die from a terminal illness. It isn't like we know when we're going to die cause things like accidents might just happen, but at least we don't have to worry about something that is slowly leeching our lives away. The will to live and the will to fight the disease, I admire you. I really do for I know not if I have the courage to live each day not knowing when I'll go..
On the former, peculiar it may seems, but it only seems so because it isn't common. Don't judge. It's just different.
The journey.
- Mood:
loved - Music:Kiss Me - Olivia
I think this is a really awesome song that is catchy and stuck in my head.
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air
See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd And say hello
Little did I know
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go.. and I said
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little whi..ile
Oh oh-
Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was beggin' you please don't go and I said
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Romeo save me, they're tryin' to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real!
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh
I got tired of waiting
Wonderin' if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said
Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said-
Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know!
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes!
Oh oh
Oh oh oh
Cause we were both young when I first saw you...
In an article for Billboard, Swift described "Love Story" as "a love that you've got to hide because for whatever reason it wouldn't go over well. I spun it in the direction of Romeo and Juliet; our parents are fighting. I relate to it more as a love that you cannot really elaborate on — a love that maybe society wouldn't accept [or] maybe your friends wouldn't accept."[1]
The song is a mid-tempo, accompanied by banjo and guitar, in which the narrator alludes to Romeo and Juliet and The Scarlet Letter to describe a lover whom her father will not let her see. In the end, however, the father reconciles and the lover proposes to the female narrator. Swift has repeatedly mentioned in interviews that the song was written around the lyrics, "This love is difficult, but it's real."
The Pop Edit replaces the Country-style instruments (i.e. the banjo) and adds a heavier bassline, a drum loop and heavier electric guitars.
Loves.
Good music makes me happy.
- Location:Home
- Mood: happy
- Music:Love Story - Taylor Swift
I started packing my room which is filled with nonsensical stuff like my primary school pencil collection, pokémon cards, copies of photos from Japan trip that were for my friends (that were uncollected since 2003), a lot of loose cables, junk, junk and more junk. I used to like keeping stuff for memory's sake but heck la, after you die still can bring to tomb urn with you mehz? SO, after much though, I've decided to give away half of my old school T/Polo-shirts (kept the other half in the store cause I really couldn't bare parting with them), donate away my old books and Chinese manga (which was an attempt by my dad to help me improve my Chinese), give away some old bags and to shift my furniture around my room. Now I have some space where I can lay a carpet and some cushions for a cosy area. I hope I don't get to lazy and make it project-halfway again.
I'm so hyped up for 2009. I'm going to ORD. Pink IC, come to papa.
My resolve.
- Mood: hopeful
- Music:Save the Best for Last - Sounds Like Love
2008 was awesome.
I went through a lot.
I've learnt.
Now apply.
My resolutions are simple:
1) Move on.
2) Make better choices.
3) Don't think too much.
4) Live a little more for myself.
5) Use the credit card only when in dire situations.
6) Spend less.
7) Read more.
8) Smile more.
I spent my last moment of 2008 with Casey, Socks, Azi and Xian counting down in an Irish pub at ECP. I wonder what next year's count down will be like for me..
Another year has gone.
I grew a leap.
- Mood: hopeful
I managed to find THE planner just now at Times but when I got home I realised that it wasn't a "Singapore" kinda calendar cause the public holidays were not updated inside! Nevertheless, I was a lilttle glad that I don't have to carry the A4 size planner around anymore with the new, sleak, A6 (I think that's the notation) planner!
I have like 3 books that I wanna read right now and I'm only 1/4 into A General Theory of Love. I know the title sounds like some book which a love-struck-bloke will read but trust me, it's way too science and informative to be any bimbo book.
Shimin lent me her Introduction to Sociology module notes and I'm gonna scan through those to get a better understanding. Too bad I left it in office, if not I will be going through it right now.
I'm like finally 70 la. It's been way TOO long cause I was hook onto BGs for a while.
Scruffy scruffy.
Time to pack up soon.
I sense the light.
- Mood: calm
- Music:Love to Love You - The Corrs
We met up at TTK's house and he fetched us to ECP to collect the bikes. After which, went to fetch MJ from PP and it was a crazy trip to NTU. MJ and I were like cramped at the back with all the bikes while the Sergeants were seated in front. It was quite an atrocious trip to NTU and boy, I'm so glad my legs did not cramp from all that squeezing!
After concert, we went for dinner at Macs @ JP before setting off at about 11pm when everyone arrived. We journeyed to Kent Ridge, Vivo, Tanjong Pagar, Raffles City, Esplanade, Kallang and then ECP! We manage to arrive at 6am to have breakfast and to see the "sunrise". It was an eventful trip and although my thighs are aching now, it felt really good and it has certainly been sometime since our last physical batch gathering.
Kudos to TTK for drving the van to ferry the bikes and for being our safety vehicle for without him, this trip was certainly not possible. Thanks to Jocelyn for being our guide, the drivers XT, TTK and Sherman. I'm glad that the weather turned out great and everyone was safe at the end of the journey. We ought to to this again!!!
Christmas came and go. It was kinda tiring cause there were to many gatherings to attend to. On the eve, I had brunch with TJCSB batch mates at Bakerzin in town. I was a little moody cause of lack of sleep and a hungry tummy. Everyone end up being late and we waited quite a while for everything to settle down. Thankfully, after some jokes and stuff, the gathering got better. Dinner at Yiyi's house wasn't a big spread as last year's Christmas but we managed to carol this year! Although the girls sounded like chickens at the beginning, the ending was kinda sweet. Suk Ching and her sister, Suk Lin joined us for Christmas celebration at Yiyi's place and after gift exchange, they came over to our house to play mahjong while I, reluctantly (cause I was playing WoW), went over to A's place.
I enjoyed playing Rock Band II (I think that's the game) after a few rounds of drinks. I drank kinda fast and I felt quite nauseous. After everyone "tou", I went to play the drumset alone. After like 5 songs, I felt too giddy and I tried to lie down to sleep on the couch. It was really uncomfortable and in the end, I hailed a cab and went home at 4am instead. That was the first time I puked after drinking and I forced myself to vomit was cause I wanted to get rid of the disgusting feeling inside. Sometimes I don't understand why people like to drink so much when alcohol taste like poison. The only reason I drink is cause I don't wanna be a kill-joy and I guess for a small part of me, I wanted to high feeling. I think a lilttle is okay, but anything more than a little will suck.
I'm glad mum gave me a massage when she woke up. While having lunch at 4pm (the time I woke up on Christmas Day), dad gave me half a mug of beer and he told me to drink it. He said it was suppose to cure the hangover effect and will make me a better drinker next time. I hope there won't be a next.
So at about 7pm, I finally managed to get my ass out of the house to meet Yun and together we cabbed down to Timbre to join our classmates. I don't deny the service is good but it was a little "too" good. The waiters there kept clearing our table and it was annoying. I know they probably want our table to be neat and to make us order more stuff, but it was really irritating that they kept clearing every single piece of used cutlery or tissue paper from our table. We all got a bit annoyed and some of them started complaining out loud. The live band did not sound that fantastic but it was okay.
After that, Gary and Pamela drove to Marina Barrage! I finally got to see it! It was beautiful. I was just telling a friend sometime back that I want to look for a place in Singapore with widespread grassland and a vast sky and I guess the barrage was the location. After climbing up on the architecture, you will be on this wide grassland and the skies will be close at hand. It was awesome. The only pity was that it was cloudy that day and it wasn't carpet grass. I know carpet grass is dirtier but it feels and look better! I wonder how it will look in the day..
I'm intending to take off on 31st and 2nd so that I'll have a long weekend from 31st till 4th. I hope it gets approved!
I know not how the journey will be from now on. I can only move on and hope for the best.
How will I strike a balance?
I'm still pondering.
How much time do you need?
Maybe I need professional help for thinking too much.
What values?
- Location:Airport Road
- Mood:
awake
The first one I ever had was way back in my old house at 494C. It was a nightmare about rats. I dream that I was walking towards the balcony and there was a hole in the middle of the wall. So I went forward and peered into it. Rats with evil red eyes suddenly jumped up and I ran all the way back into my room. I still remember me being in pyjamas and screaming for my mum to come in.
The nightmare that just happened was kinda weird too. I suddenly dream of an Ah Beng, with red tee shirt and blonde hair lurching out towards me with his hands stretched out to claw me. My hands suddenly flew infront of me to stop him and I woke up.
Oh dreams.
Nvm. I shall WoW.
At times like this...
- Mood:
annoyed
4 more months and I will be out of army and I will begin a new chapter in my life.
It was good while is lasted. Now is to find that kind of feelings which I have lost.
What do I really want?
Make me a liar not.
Make me a hypocrite not.
For fulfillment is when your thoughts, actions and words are in harmony.
- Mood:
distressed
Alright so I managed to utilize photobucket to upload my photos but I have to resize them myself and they won't be the size of the standard photos I post on my blog. Nevertheless, I finally can have pictures again!
On Friday my unit had a Christmas dinner celebration and I received an award! They decided to have this during their last meeting and I was presented with this certificate during the dinner.
It kinda felt good for being appreciated and that will also mean I have to work a lot harder so as not to disappoint those who thought I was worthy of this. Most importantly, it made mummy gleam with pride. (:
There was a Borders' book voucher with it and I managed to get two books from Borders.
On Saturday, I met up with Fung, JS and Xian and we went to J&J's house to visit baby Jenn Yip. The house was huge and it took the taxi a while to find the place.
Having a baby does make you emit the fatherly aura.
After that, JS PS-ed us and we went to meet Lao Jeff and Socks in town.
It was quite a last minute affair when sis asked to meet and I rushed off to meet MIA and we went for Jake's concert at SAM.
It wasn't flawless but it was enjoyable and I felt the Christmas spirit and the effort the singers put in.
After the concert, I went off to meet Socks, Xian and Lao De at IndoChine and we lazed and listened to CatsinéCradle. Halfway through, Tasha (proclaimed Queen of Orchard0 came and started dancing in front of them. The band acknowledged her and the conversation between Jeff (the lead singer) and her was rather hillarious. He said, "Tasha can be a male or a female." and to which she replied with a loud noise and she stomped her feet and showed off her empty cavity. "But Tasha is also human right?" - I thought this was rather touching. It was quite awesome that despite being a transgender, she wasn't discriminated by the the lead singer and although he poked fun of her at times, I could sense that he accepted her.
Neh came to join us after that and we stayed on till their last performance and cabbed home after that.
I cut my hair on Sunday and it was rather disastrous! I told her to trim and she cut. Thankfully, during performance, there was a Christmas hat to cover the messy hair. And I'm yes, hair grows!
I managed to shop after the performance. Sean accompanied me and after that I passed him my old clothes which he was going to help distribute to the poor. I'm super broke now after my shopping spree and I'm ready to face the music when I receive my bill next month. I think it will probably be my entire NS pay.
I'm going to start WoW, camp at home and be a Zai Nan. This way, I'm going to save some money.
Last gig tomorrow!
One week felt like a month..
- Mood:
confused
ARGH.
I've been eating a lot! Went to like CJLMXLB, N.Y.D.C. and Canele on Wed, Blue Jazz, Ice Monster and Tao's on Friday! I'm burning a hole in my pocket from all that eating! Next month onwards (I still have to enjoy eating and gatherings cause of the festive season), I shall be drinking rainwater and snacking on jiam tao lo ti and sou ta bia.
December is gonna be so packed and I can't wait to meet up with all the people whom I haven't seen in ages! Vivian is back from Australia, Tasneem is leaving for Mexico for 6 months and MJ just ORD-ed today. Hopefully our batch cycling will turn out well. (: I do miss runway cycling.
This morning, I was watching a documentary on transgender people on The Stratis Times Razor TV via www.stomp.com.sg. I was quite impressed by the strength that some of these transgender people have. They are courageous to live who they are and dare to go against society for what they strongly believe in. I'm not strongly for sex change operations, but I just think that it is rather inspirational to watch. Gender studies is probably one of the more interesting minors I will consider in NUS.
Imagine being a girl and having more testosterone in your body due to genetic purposes. You want to be a guy but you're trapped in a girl's body. It's quite a messy world out there at times isn't it?
Alas Vivian and Tek Xin asked me why I wasn't at the church camp when they saw me in TJ today. I said I haven't heard of it and they sounded shocked as publicity must have been around church. Then came the guilt. I haven't been to church in the past few months.. I don't know if it was the video that I watched or I'm just losing fatih.. or maybe I'm afraid to face the truth. Um.. who will guide this lost sheep?
Fiesta Bonanza. The playing was quite messy and I thought that other than the first few pieces, the rest were not very well rehearsed. Nevertheless, I saw the spirit the band people have and I'm glad the TJ band tradition is going strong. Although we had a jazz band instead of a proper alumni band this year, it was still fun to play in. I do miss the simpler days where I just mugged for A's, skipped lectures to sleep in the band room, went into the "bus" in TJ to play bridge, snacked away in the canteen and the simpler JC days where I didn't think so much about life and my future..
If only we stop thinking.
Where has me gone?
- Mood: sore
OMG. I was uploading pictures into my LJ and I got this message:"Not enough disk space remaining on your account for these pictures." !! Does it mean I can't upload more photos into my blog!! *runs around screaming as if my hair is on fire*
Okay. Whatever.
So anyway, I'm on like this long stretch of break since Friday. It's like from Friday till Wednesday (which is tomorrow) I get to escape from work! (:
So there was our Jazz Band performance on Friday which was quite screwed. We were suppose to reach Raffles City Shopping Centre at like 7.15pm but because of the bad traffic, our instruments only came at 8.15pm la! We missed our sound check and rushed for our performance slot at 8.15pm. Everything was so hectic and I was pespiring like mad when the performance ended! I'm just so glad we got over it and I never wanna go through that performance horror again! There is gonna be two more gigs and I'm sure we will set off super early to beat the jam!
And on Saturday, I embarked on my journey to KL with the guys! It was awesome hanging out with everyone and I totally enjoyed the cheap and good food, the shopping and the clubbing. Escaping from Singapore for a while was great and KL was not as bad as I expected! There were so many things to see and so many shops to visit and I seriously thing that 3 days 2 nights was way too short. Next time I'm there, I'll be sure to load up and be prepared for a shopping spree~
All of us just lazed around on coach and slept. Half of them were in shades:
Root Beer Float!
Walking and walking and walking to look for our hotel - Radius International. We managed to get a free upgrade to premier rooms with spectecular view of the 17th floor.
First night, we clubbed:
Prior to that, we had dinner at their Hong Kong Cafe. Everything in the menu was priced like Singapore, but it was in Ringgit! So everything was literally half-price! Not only that, I loved the food there as it tasted SOO damn good! We actually had dinner there on both days.
Pavillion (their equal of Singapore's Paragon) was really huge and there was just too many things to look at! The toilets were real nice and had these huge mirrors:
After clubbing, we had prata.
Next day, it was a crazy shopping spree.
Check out the Majorie poses:
And we celebrated Thomas' belated:
These 3 just look so much like Santa's elves:
I wonder if this building in KL caught on Fire:
I finally completed another book by Christopher Spry. A book titled Child C which is about his foster mother, Eunice Spry, torturing her children for more than 10 years. She finally got arrested and got 14 years in jail. Out there, someone who is the same age as me has actually gone through living hell. The World can be such a scary place.
This is the evil woman:
I really enjoying reading non-fiction books about people. I think I loan some books but I can't remember who are they with! Zzz.
Now to get more books!
Turmoil. I'll be back when I'm ready. I'm just tired, real tired of things around. In a highly volatile stage right now and I'm just irritated at myself at times when my own judgement gets the better of me. When I can't be myself. When I don't know what I want. This time round, I'll find it.
Know me, for who I am.
- Mood: awake
wad realm u all playin in?
caroline says:
wrath of the lich king
(O)_(O)
- Mood:
LOL!
Practice yesterday ended at 11pm and it was tiring! I certainly do hope everything will sound okay on Friday's performance considering how few rehearsals we had. It was fun swinging with MJ and Mavis on the elements in TJ. =X
I'm going to be on leave from tomorrow till Wednesday and in between I'll be off to KL for a couple of days. It's finally gonna be a break from work and some free time to do some own administrative stuff. And I received the best news yet that ISO audit will be postponed till June/July next year - period after I ORD - YES! =D
Gosh gosh gosh! December is turning out SOOO well!
Tell me.
- Location:Airport Road
- Mood:
groggy
Monday my sister flew to Bangkok. I only realised that she was trapped in Bangkok on Thursday cause I haven't been reading the news. Her return flight is supposedly Monday but now we don't know if she can get back yet. At least SC is there with her and she has an aunt there whom they can turn to and her hotel is far from the airport. Gah. Somehow, despite all her assurance, I just can't help randomly texting her when I get infomation and suddenly though of something..
On Thursday, my mum called me to inform me that our grandmother wasn't doing very well and might have to be warded again. She was enquiring about oxygen support system from Aunt Linda's husband and called to inform me. Within moments, she called again and said that she was on her way to Gombak. My paternal grandmother had passed away.
So I stayed back a bit to complete my work as I won't be at office on Friday and a few days from the subsequent week. I asked CW if he could pick me up cause my dad wanted me to be back quick as we have to reach Gombak by 9.30pm. Thanks CW. We rushed down to purchase the white tee-shirts and after that cabbed down. My family stayed the night and we left at about 8am. WIthout any sleep, I was quite zombified. My sister will probably miss the funeral unless she makes it back on Monday.
Grandma had difficulty in breathing. Rina (her domestic helper) held on to her and patted her chest. She breath her last breathe in Rina's arms. Observing her when I visited grandma and the way she fed her while grandma was in the hospital, I felt a lot of love pouring out from her. It's sad to say, but the last two years of her life, grandma wasn't close with the sons and daughters, it was an outsider who cared for her and they bonded. They had a special connection. There was no languaged barrier as they communicated in Malay. Through her, my mum learned about some of grandma's thoughts about her own children. It's sad, but that's what family becomes when people grow old and start their own family.. I just woke up and can't phrase myself properly, it's just some random thoughts..
I went for jazz band practice after my long slumber. Although I thought it was rather messy that we were that short of players for the upcoming performances in Raffles City, playing yesterday felt really good. I haven't touch my tbone for like 3 months and after picking up again yesterday, I was kinda inspired to play. It's going to be a busy December with 3 jazz band performances and alumni band for Fiesta. I hope we make it.
My schedule is quite messed up now. Thankfully there are people to help me cover my duty for Thursday and Sunday. I might have to take leave again on Tuesday which will depends if I can work. My throat feels damn weird every morning and it hurts when I swallow. I'm drowning honey/water right now cause I can't let it affect my playing.
My ahma (maternal grandmothe) has gone overseas to Myanmar for a wedding celebration and will be back 10 days later. Hope she enjoys herself and keeps herself warm.
November seriously sucks.
I just want to have my family back home.
- Mood: tired
- Music:I Still Believe - Mariah Carey
Concert was inspirational. Celebration was goosebump filled.
Met Brian and Ah Tan and I bumped into Matt, HS & gang and some random pple here and there. Missing it.
Work is tedious.
Dead beat.
Bye.
I'm living the present right now.
- Mood: hungry
